Sultry Oka (28) escort Italy

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I tell myself I'm over him and to let him live his life, but I am in so much pain, I find myself still dancing from time to time and crying over this man who I love so much with all my heart every single day that god sends to me even if it is only for a few moments, he's always on my mind everyday, and my heart is on fire, and my soul is destroyed, now I hate having men touching me (even friends) or even looking at me or telling me anything other women would find comforting, I gave this man everything I absolutely had, I gave him everything I could offer and he just doesn't care, how do I move on? Knowing that I'm in the longrun and the pain doesn't get better it hurts even more everyday he's not here, it hurts to know he is getting married (even though he told me he has no desire to) will this feeling ever go away? Has anybody ever felt like this? How can I move on? I don't want to think about him anymore, I've tried chilling out with friends or going to the library, even when I'm at college I think about him, but when I think about him I think about him and his family, and everything he promised me, how we would always be together and he would never leave me, and how beautiful he used to tell me I was, I feel so stupid for thinking I was his only and he only wanted me, I feel used and naпve and I don't think I ever want to be involved with anybody else again, this pain I feel is a great deal of pain and it doesn't seem to be going away, I just want to live my life and forget everything about him but it is so hard when the only person you had, relied on, trusted, confined in, loved, cherished, shared your whole dreams and plans with threw everything away in the space of a moment, I miss him so much and I love him still ( I don't tell my friends I always keep it tomyself) I've done as much as restricted myself from talking to him but my heart hasn't even come close to dealing with the all of the pain he's brought, sometimes I sit and think about him for hours on end and just feel so fragile, wondering what I've done to make him leave, because all I ever did was try and make him happy???? I don't see myself being happy with another man again, the thought of another man makes me physically sick, I currently moved into my first apartment and I am still decorating but sometimes I break down in tears because he had always promised a life together, my heart is so tierd that when I cry now I can physically, mentally and emtionally feel my heart, what do I do? I don't want to feel like this anymore, I am not ready to be in love but it had hit me so hard and made it harder for anybody else to come near me, I've had previous boyfriends and brokeup with them but nothing compared to this, I'm so hurt and confused, should I tell his woman? Or should I just leave it? I don't want him to hate me for saying anything but I think she deserves the right to know? I really don't know! I've prayed to God and told him how sorry I am for being with another womans man (even though he says he's not in a bond but I don't believe his lying filth) and all the lust he had for me, I pray for him everynight so that God can protect him against any bad thing and I pray that he and who ever he is with have a long happy life together, how do I cope with all this? Feeling like the loser? Like I have nothing but just a body? Not even feelings or anything? I can't even remember how I felt before I met him, and I hate when my friends talk bad about him it hurts me to hear the bad things they say about him, He told me loved me but I know that was all just lies and games, Any good advice for a tender broken heart? I wish him all the best and I hope he has a beautiful life with anybody he's ever with because he's such a nice guy and any woman who is with him really deserves him, I know he's made mistakes and not thought about the people he's hurt but he's only human, I get so angry at him for just leaving me, what if every man I meet is like this? Why did he feel the need to lie to me and act like I was his only? And all the time he was living two lives. How can a man be so coldhearted and not even care about the damage he's doing to both his "woman" and how he has just come into my life and not realize how much scarring he has left behind and just carrys on with his life like I never exsisted? I feel so much remorse towards his "woman" even if they really aren't together, why would anybody drag another persons life into their own because its not working out or because they have problems? please give me some tips on how to be happy in myself again and move on in whole xxxxxx xxxxx.